Saturday, October 9, 2021

Images In Consciousness

For me, the idea that the universe in an appearance in consciousness seems the most plausible. A duality does appear in the universe in that there is inert matter and living organisms. A living organism has a sense of self (outside and inside) whereas a rock does not. An amoeba seeks that which is beneficial to maintaining is structure, while a rock does not. This means that while everything is in consciousness, living beings have self consciousness while inert matter does not. The essence of awareness seems the most Godlike and where the feeling of "I am That" occurs.  

If everything is in consciousness why are some images self aware and some are not? This I cannot answer. It only seems obvious to me that my body and a rock are both images in consciousness. 

Tuesday, October 5, 2021

The Ladder Analogy

Many sages have used the ladder analogy. You can  learn best from someone a rung above you on the ladder. Higher than that it is likely you won't understand what they are teaching. I found this to be true in my search.

In the end you have to become your own authority. I always had an intuitive sense of what was beneficial to me. I followed that intuition. I did not select a single path, but followed anything that resonated.

I devoured many teachers and moved on when I felt I understood. I studied with my intellect and followed my intuition. Yes, some teachers are at a much higher level of consciousness than others. I have come to understand that there is no final end point. There are many awakenings. Even those who we consider enlightened progress to deeper and more subtle understandings.

Follow what resonates with you. If you trust someone because they embody what you are seeking, ask them who they studied. Then test the teacher or teaching. Does it resonate with you? Does it give you a sense of truth, a sense of clarity? Remember, in the end, it is you who becomes the truth. Then there is no one to follow.

Sunday, October 3, 2021

You Are Not In Charge

The cure to anxiety seems to be the deliberate acceptance of life as it is. Bad things happen. Death comes. When what life entails is deeply accepted, then there is not much to be anxious about. Of course, this does not mean you don't feel empathy, or promote what you see as good. It just means you don't judge how life should be.You have your preferences, but you are not in charge.

Thursday, September 30, 2021

What Rumi Knew

 Rumi said, "Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing & rightdoing there is a field. I'll meet you there." Ah, to be in that space has to be profound. It points to the Absolute that can neither be right nor wrong. Who is to judge what the Absolute is doing? Do you see this? Can you take it in? If you can, then you can be at peace with whatever is going on. 

It doesn't mean we don't do the next right thing. It doesn't mean we persons don't have preferences. But we are talking about ultimate truth, beyond relativity. In the Absolute there is no right or wrong. There is no freedom or bondage. There is no lie. When we know this we play our role willingly, peacefully. It's a surrender because we know the truth.

Existence Is Awareness

The one thing you can't deny is that you exist. That sense of existence is pure awareness. That is what you are! Not a thing, not a person, just awareness. This knowing gives peace. 

You don't have to contemplate nothingness. No matter how insubstantial everything is, there remains existence. 

Awareness is not personal, but it does experince the personal. Once this distinction is known deeply your true eternal existence provides peace. Sat Chit Ananda.

Step Out Of The Map

A great expression is "The map is not the territory." People fall in love with the map. They get all tangled up in the markers and names. The map is so helpful that fall in love with it and forget to put it down and experience the territory itself. 

Religion is a path for connection to God. But people fall in love with their religion and fight wars over the diffeerences. They forget that all roads lead to Rome. When you've crossed the river you don't have to carry the boat wherever you go. 

What do you need to carry when you know you are That? 

Wednesday, September 15, 2021

Consciousness Is Fundamental

It is simply obvious to me that all  arguments,  words, concepts, and gestures appear in consciousness. Where else could they appear? 

All the feelings conveyed and experienced in conversation, feelings of agreement or disagreement, all appear in consciousness only. Nothing we know or experience can appear anywhere else. 

Without consciousness, no discussion of what is true or false could occur. Imagining anything outside consciousness can only be imagined in consciousness. Isn't it absolutely and utterly obvious that consciousness is fundamental? It is inconceivable until it becomes obvious.

Saturday, August 28, 2021


The "longing" is what drove me. There was always an intuition that something was missing. Something that was known was somehow lost. I never mistrusted the longing. It was real. If the longing wasn't a necessary experience we wouldn't have it. It persisted through every doubt. In the end, there is trust even in the unknown.

Saturday, August 21, 2021


I am. Everything after that is an afterthought. 

Tuesday, August 10, 2021

Choicelss Awareness

We actually are choiceless awareness. Our ego can direct us to pay attention to this or that, and choiceless awareness presents us with whatever we have chosen. Our only mistake is thinking we are the chooser, and not the pure awareness that is the screen.

Thursday, July 15, 2021

Realization Is Just The Beginning

Realization does not immediately create a complete lack of suffering. Realization is just that. A realization. It doesn't take away your feelings, your personality, your unconscious motives.

Realization is an opening into deeper seeing. It is an addition to what you know. It does not destroy proclivities or attitudes of long standing.

There is more work to do after realization. What you have is a new position to see from. A new perspective with which to view life and examine attitudes. In time, yes, suffering will diminish. It will diminish as situations, reactions and perspectives are re-examined in the light of realization. Realization is not an end point. It is the beginning of the possibility of real change.

Wednesday, June 30, 2021

Get Rid of the Ego

Rather than try and get rid of the ego, simply contemplate and examine the truth of what we are. When we go deep enough, and realize the Self, the quiet mind is a natural result. Trying to get rid of the ego is mistaking the result for the prescription.


There is great humility in admitting that which we may find not perfect in our person. Exposed, it only deepens our knowledge or our true Self. But that person is not who we are. We are, despite our despair, the perfect expression of what is. 

Wednesday, May 26, 2021

The Experience of No Self

During several years of therapy my ego defenses lessened. As pieces fell away, my perception of myself had less firm ground. Even the world around me changed as projection stopped. My mind was intrigued by this loss of definition. Openness to not knowing increased, although it took time to acclimate. 

In the openness there seemed to be little of me while at the same time the rest of the world seemed to become me. This is when I came upon the literature of "no self." The most detailed account of this was penned by a former nun, Bernadette Roberts who wrote "The Experience of No Self." 

I did not read that book as, "Oh this is a nice or interesting concept." No, it gave me comfort in that someone else described it and gave it incredible detail. My point is that the experience is real. The concepts and writing about it are simply description. 

When you look at the experience of "no self" it comes to the same conclusion as the Eastern statements that "You are not the doer." One is an intellectual statement. The other is the experience.

Monday, May 24, 2021

Are You The Doer

If the person only knows himself as a body/mind separate from everything else, they feel like a doer. If they realize they are in essence, ultimately, the Absolute, the Creator, Brahman, whatever name you like, then there is only one, so the person can't be the doer.

On the other hand, identifying with Source you are the doer. It depends on where your identity rests. Identifying as Source one is a lot closer to free will. But then again, there is no alternate to the Absolute, so there isn't even the possibility of freedom or bondage. It's beyond that. It's limitless Isness, being and doing all That is.

Sunday, May 16, 2021

Awareness Is

Awareness is the field of potential knowing. When something appears in the field, consciousness arises. Meta consciousness is a further refinement of consciousness in that "you know that you know." Awareness is the field in which both consciousness and meta consciousness appear.

You might say that enlightenment is when meta consciousness begins to pay attention to that which allows all experience to be known. That knower is Awareness. Identifying as that awareness pretty much stops the search. 

Thursday, May 13, 2021


The knowing of God or a higher power, provides a shoulder to lean on. If you don't have that, then you have to take on those responsibilities. Some sensitive people then take on the "I have to save the world," complex. This really is too big a burden. You can't do it. 

But, if you have the knowing of the Absolute, and know that it is in charge, that it created the world as it is, then you can relax. Then you can take God's perspective and know that the world is perfect as it is. 

Yes, there can still be progress. But it goes from perfection to perfection. Life is never less than perfect whether we know why or not. We don't have the whole answer, but we can trust. This trust will give you peace.

Sunday, April 25, 2021

Is Realization Necessary

In my pursuit of enlightenment I came to a paradox. I realized that I didn't need to feel enlightened because whether I felt realized or not, I was unavoidably That. This is a paradox because I felt a need, a driving force, to understand enlightenment. And yet I had the counter intuitive thought that it wasn't necessary because I was That. I was what I was looking for! 

This seems to point to the fact that some part of me knew I was That, while another part was in denial. Perhaps we all know deep inside that we are in essence That which is existence. It is our mind that wants assurance. The realization seems to be when the mind comes into agreement with the intuition. That is, when we know that we know. 

Your Life Has Beautiful Meaning

Whenever my life felt meaningless there was always a disgust at that feeling. Why would that be? It seems that the natural revulsion we experience is due to the meaningless being untrue. Our deepest nature is telling us that we are seeing something wrong. If there is a "natural" state, it is not meaninglessness. 

I do not always experience beauty. But I got an insight into this after an ecstatic mystical experience. I could not stay in the ecstasy because there was no "me" there. As the ecstasy faded, I got a direct input of truth. An inner perception gave me this pronouncement. "You are always surrounded by absolute beauty, always have been, and always will be, whether you are aware of it or not." 

That notification was a direct message about the truth of existence. It is Absolute beauty whether we recognize it or not. When I see beauty I am grateful. When I don't see beauty, I know it is still there. 

Saturday, April 10, 2021

The Inner Door

The door to our spirit, to our eternal life is not out there. Out there we will only find pointers. And out there, the pointers are few and far between. The door is inside, where we don't look. It is like the back door we never use. We even forget that it is there. 

There is only one thing we can't deny; it is that we exist, that we are aware. This awareness is the "I am" that was given to Moses, and the "I am" that Jesus spoke of. He said, "I am is the way the truth and the life." He was referring to the "I am" of each of us. The one eye that looks from all creatures. Not Jesus the man. 

The back door is where we finally have to look. It is the inside door. We must have great confidence to open the inner door. Without that confidence, we must be brought to our knees in suffering to finally open it. 

The inner door must be opened for the true light to get in. The world's light is but a dim reflection. We spend our life looking under the lamppost when the sun is just beyond the inner door. Let us be confident and open that inner 'back door' before we suffer too much. Peace.