Tuesday, January 16, 2018


I am the awareness that watches Maury. It's so fun to watch. It's like being involved without being affected. It's peaceful and enjoyable at the same time. Maury's so enjoyable, even his problems. Maury is actually at rest in me. 

Monday, January 8, 2018

Without Qualities You Are

Every one of us has a unique perception of the world and a unique personality. Each and every one of us is aware of this uniqueness. Few of us stop to consider that the awareness that provides our unique perception is the same.

Awareness does not play favorites. It is available to all of us. It is only the flavor of that awareness, filtered through our unique mix of vasanas, that is different. We are all aware, but we filter the objects differently.

Enlightenment is taking a step back from our filters and settling in awareness itself. From that vantage point, dispassion sets in, objectivity becomes available, and freedom arises as judgment ceases.

From the vantage point of awareness, our uniqueness as a person is just a set of qualities, an appearance only. This is freedom from the jiva, and freedom for the jiva.

All qualities and modifications in the world are dependent on you, but you awareness, are not dependent on them. You are qualityless. You, awareness, are deathless and limitless.

Sunday, January 7, 2018

Unconditional Self Acceptance

From childhood we often take on self demeaning attitudes projected on us. If we were not loved in a way that gave us  confidence, we often continue that self demeaning conditioning long after we leave home. Consider this, and give yourself a break.

Best to continually step back from your automatic self response and take an objective look. Honestly, you are not as bad as you think, and a little self forgiveness is in order.

You already know you are awareness and can stand back and treat yourself with a little compassion. Wear your personality lightly. It's not who you really are.

Don't beat yourself up with inquiry. Look at yourself gently. Continually forgive yourself. Step back and look at your reactions. Just look. Consider your reactions from the standpoint of unconditional awareness. You might find room to give yourself break. That's progress. 

Saturday, January 6, 2018

Aware Universe

Existence = Consciousness. For me this seems self evident and means we live in a  universe of non dual awareness. This universe is one whole, non separate field of interconnected wholeness. Only name and form seem to separate.

Since this universe exists, something existed to create it. Since consciousness is knowing, whatever created this universe had to be conscious and knowing of what it created.

Beautiful, intelligent awareness is pervasive. Positive elections are aware of negative electrons. Magnetic forces respond to each other, and paired particles respond to spin from long distances.

This whole universe from micro to macro is aware of itself. To my mind this does not seem refutable.

Sunday, December 31, 2017

What Seems True

1. I have never known non existence. I can conceptualize non existence, but I can never know it.

2. Awareness implies existence. The one thing I cannot deny is that I exist.

3. Experience informs me that something does not come from nothing. Therefore, this universe, observed as coming forth from the big bang, did not come from nothing.

4. Everything I experience seems to have a cause. It does not seem plausible that there was no cause.

5. Whatever is created in this universe has to be created by that original cause. That cause, whatever it is, exists, and I cannot be other than wholly that.

6. Knowing that I am That, whatever That is, I have no choice but to surrender to That. Which means I accept everything without choice.

7. The limitations of this body are a contraction only, of That. When the limitations cease on death, That still remains. Knowing that I have never been anything but That, whatever That is, I remain that.

8. As a limited person I experience no free will. How could I? I did not create this set of limitations, this focal point of consciousness. It's a setup I inherited.

9. However, as I can be nothing but that which created me, That being the essence of what I am, I am freedom itself.

10. I am this presence, this awareness. I do not imagine it limited to this body/mind. When this body/mind goes, It would be presumptuous to believe that the remaining presence awareness in all beings is not me. 

Saturday, December 30, 2017

Paper and Watercolors

Paper and watercolors are a good metaphor for the Self. For example, I take clean white sheet of paper and paint a picture. Then I paint another one, and another.

All three pictures are nothing but paint. I have created name and form with the lines and colors. Yet each picture is just paint.

The essence of all the pictures, the blank page, is a metaphor for unlimited awareness, the Self.

The pictures are all mythia, paint creating name and form.

The paper is not dependent on the paint, name or form, but the picture is totally dependent on the paper. 

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Presence Is

One can entertain ideas,
Yet hold them lightly.

In holding lightly,
The unknown is embraced.

Free fall is still
A presence.

Being is, a concept
It is not.

Be the presence.
It cannot be lost.

Awareness Is

If awareness is, Existence is. I see no difference. Ideas come and go. In the coming, is awareness, in the going is awareness. All I know is awareness With name and form. Without an object, Awareness is. In this body, Or no body, Awareness is. We can conjure Many things, Destroy many things, And only Awareness Remains. When this body dies, This focal point is mute. Yet existence remains, And therefore awareness remains. Am I awareness without A body? Only Awareness knows.

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Cause and Effect

Awareness, the creator, sustainer, and knower of all that is, has no second to question its perfection. Any cause in the universe falls under this ultimate cause. Sort of answers all the questions, doesn't it?

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

The Search for Truth

I always wanted freedom. The path for me was the pursuit of truth. Truth was finding an answer to the existential questions: Why me? Why here? For what? In order to pursue truth without interference I went into business. The simple equation was this: perform a required function and get paid enough to have a stable life providing time for contemplation. I did not want to have my income tied to my questions, or in any way impinge on my freedom of exploration.

For this reason I did not want a job as a priest, or minister, or philosopher. Business I could pursue dispassionately. I did not want to own my own business because I wanted to be free of it. I did not want to be a manager because I did not bring home worries from work.

I spent most of my free time reading and studying whatever interested me in my pursuit of truth. Many people asked me why I read so much. The answer was simple. I couldn't figure this all out on my own. If I was going to find the answer, I needed help. I needed input. I needed the knowledge others had gained.

This pursuit took me through psychology, self help, evolutionary biology, sociology, philosophy, etc. It took time. But I had provided time by being a simple householder. I lived simply beneath my means. I did my job. I did it well. I left it at my desk when I walked out the door

I found in my search mostly what was not the answer. It was a process of "not this, not this," separating the wheat from the chaff. Christian mysticism came close, but it was very individualistic and tied to experience. It was not knowledge that could be easily passed to another. What experience would I have to have to know?

Advaita Vedanta eventually rose to the top. It was knowledge that was supremely thought out, logical, and thorough. When contemplated as edified by a knowledgeable teacher, it makes sense. Vedanta is a science of consciousness. It can only be said to be religious or spiritual, because it answers existential questions. Who am I? What is God. What to I need for happiness?

It was astounding for me to realize that my questions had all been answered thousands of years ago. The knowledge and understanding provided by Vedanta is deeply satisfying. It answers fundamental questions posed in any psychology, philosophy, and religion. It transcends them. Self realization brings peace. The search drops. Freedom is revealed to already be the case. The truth becomes self evident.  

Monday, November 6, 2017

Absolute Dream

When you dream at night you create a whole world full of people, animals and a storyline. You experience it with no knowledge that it is a dream until you wake up. Then you know it was entirely your own creation. One can even say it was entirely unreal, and yet you touched, felt, smelled, and experienced a material world.

How is it then so hard to realize that the waking world is no different? This whole world of name and form is a projection, a dream of the Absolute? Where is the difference? The Jiva dreams. The Absolute dreams. No difference. Not two. Sat, chit, ananda. 

Thursday, November 2, 2017

No Separation

If you have two people in a room you can do an interesting experiment. The first person says, "I am here and you are there." "No," says the second person, "I am here and you are there."

Since both persons statements are true, both are here and there. So where is the separation? Here and there are both appearances in awareness. In each case awareness is primary and the position of the bodies makes no difference. Both bodies are experienced in awareness which has no separation.


Can that which is not an object exist? You, the subject, Awareness, do you not exist? Of course! You, the  knower, unmanifest though you may be, know you exist.

With the projection of Maya every name and form appears. All are objects. They exist. Therefore, existence is primary. Manifest, or unmanifest, you are existence, consciousness, bliss. Wherefore then, can the sting of death be real?

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

The Bane of Existence

In the pot and the clay example, no matter what shape the clay becomes, it is the shape that determines its usefulness: a platter, a pot, a jar, a cup. Naturally we lock onto the usefulness of the object, not on the fact that it is made of clay. We dismiss the essence and latch onto name and form.

This is what we do with ourselves and others. We take the objective function, name and form, and neglect the underlying reality. Everything is objectified and given a value based on its usefulness. The underlying reality is forgotten and becomes unavailable. Thus the presence of Ishvara, reality, existence, consciousness, bliss, is overlooked. This alienation from the whole becomes the bane of our existence. 

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Only That

You could say that I searched for nonduality for many years. But, after arrival one does not claim to have searched at all! He who searched has left town, never to be seen again. Who was the doer? That!

I am not the doer. You are not the doer. That is the doer. All one doer, not two doers, as in a me or a you. "The sinner and the saint are just exhanging notes" to quote Nisargadatta. Where is good and bad when there is only That?

Some have called nondual awareness impersonal. But in fact, when there is only you, nothing but intimacy remains. When there is only all that is as you and me, everything is intimate. Nothing could create more intimacy. When the "observer is the observed", as Krishnamurti says, where is the distance?

Where is the harm when no one is doing anything to you, nor you to them? What opinion can you have about what is going on? Everything is allowed. There are no winners or loosers. Only That. Only That, being what it is. Loving what is. No one to save. Only That. 

Sunday, October 29, 2017

Impeccable Logic

Intelligence is not enough to discover who you are. Intelligence based on false assumptions, unexamined, just creates beautiful rationalizations. Creates castles in the sand. It takes courage, fearless self examination, uncompromising questioning and the risk of your own self conception. Truth has to be number one.

I've been around a lot of intelligent people with incredible logic based upon false assumptions. From that false base, the logic and consistency can be impeccable. But, if you go to the root on which the logic is based, the whole structure is null and void.

If one is doing self inquiry, one must be willing to go beyond the personal to the impersonal. One must be willing to ask, not just, "Who am I?" but "What am I?" That jump to the impersonal makes all the difference.  

Me and I

"Me" is a mental object. "I am" is being. You say, "I am angry," not "Me is angry." Why? Because "I am" refers to awareness, the real self. It is awareness that knows the experience, while "me" is just reflected awareness in the bodymind. 

Dream Characters

Awareness takes on the Jiva just like we take on the characters in a dream. No difference. When you wake up from a dream you go, "Oh, I had a dream." In waking life when you wake up you know, "I am not limited to this person. I was sleeping.

Saturday, October 28, 2017

Survival Instinct Moved

The drive to survive, to maintain is hardwired into us. We got it from our evolutionary past. This instinct to survive is necessary and natural, but that survival instinct now has moved and mapped itself to our ego. Now we act as if our ego is what we must protect as if it is our life. But, is it really so? Is it necessary that our ego be protected as a live or die object?

The ego is a structure of our upbringing, our culture, our beliefs. It has very little to do with our survival. It's a story, opinion, assumption. Can we see this?

As awareness we can step back and look at this object, see it for what it is. It is an ephemeral object. It is not who we are. It is not our life. Only by stepping away from ego can we see it objectively, purely, and have compassion for ourselves and others. 

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Attitude Affects Karma

Suppose you have the idea there are bad people in the world that should be hurt. Your attitude is that they need to be punished. You take yourself to be the virtuous one, and you are going to do some of the punishing.

You decide that a number of bad people hang out in the dive bar at the edge of town. So you take it upon yourself to go there and have a few drinks. Surely you'll find someone that needs to be hurt.

You arrive and have a few drinks. Soon enough you're feeling cocky. A rough looking dude walks in and starts behaving badly. He is pestering some young woman who wants nothing to do with him. You approach the tough guy and confront him concerning his behavior.

Now you have an argument and you smile as it escalates. Being virtuous, you let the other guy throw the first punch. You are rather tough yourself, you get the better of him. You both get kicked out of the bar, but you are satisfied that you hurt someone who needed to be hurt.

You attitude keeps you going back. You repeat the same scenario over and over. Soon, you are no longer allowed in that bar. You find another one. Same story.

Thirty years later you find yourself alone, banned from all the bars. Half your bones are broken. Your nose is off kilter, and a piece of your ear is missing. As you sit pondering, you suddenly realize that all the other people who thought some people needed to be hurt, were also gathering at the dive bar. You had found each other and provided the correct karma.