We are not here for our own individual purposes. All you have done is discovered that you are here. Granted, that makes you innocent.
However, if you are a soul who travels in and out of body life cycles, perhaps you are bringing unknown Karma with you? Your innocence may be mistaken.
Did you arrive trailing clouds of glory, with a little Karmic inheritance to fulfill? Perhaps an unknown agenda to live out? There may be choices to be made, a range that expands or constricts, depending on what you do.
Do you fall into temptation, or do you strive for some inner knowing? Do you hesitate? Or do you reach toward the light? Is seeking really a curse, or is it a choice you made, to claw and scrape beneath the surface?
On what grounds can you defend your seeking? Hasn't all your seeking been a response to this? Have you been driving or has it been driving you?
Intuitively you know your agenda is unique. It has informed your entire life. Your uniqueness is more than genes, more than nurture.
Your seeking pivots on an unknown source. The fulcrum is somewhere out of sight. But it drives you. Somewhere, deep inside, you know you chose it.