Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Falling Through the Window

It is not Maury who is realized. Maury had to see himself as a figment, an imaginary person, thought up by a mind to protect a body. Actually, Maury didn't see it, because Maury is a figment. So what really saw it? The Absolute recognized itself, no-thing playing Maury.

Awakening is when the Absolute realizes itself in appearance. Or better yet, realizes itself as prior to the person. Maury, Jane or John, can say there is realization. But the appearance, Maury, Jane, John, cannot say they are realized, only that realization Is.

The appearance may talk about realization, but it is not a personal realization. Realization belongs only to the Absolute, even though the expression of it appears to come through the person.

The Maury appearance had many experiences: joy, bliss, oneness, ecstasy. Maury thought he had accomplished something. Maury thought that was realization. But the ecstasy faded. He wanted those experiences back. He actually thought he had realized and lost it. How to get it back?

Realization isn't blissful, poetic, orgasmic. Realization isn't an experience at all. It is completely impersonal, more like, "Oh, this, just this." It may be amazing in it's simplicity. Just ordinary. And ordinary becomes OK. The apparent person realizes he isn't special. He isn't even a person! Just this no-thing.

Awakening is the Absolute realizing itself. The apparent person is just the witness, who may then go blab on and on about it for the rest of his life. But do know, he knows it is not his life. Do know, he knows, he's not doing it. He's not doing anything.

And most of all he's not enlightened. He was just a lucky appearance, who by grace, was allowed a peek through a window, fell through and disappeared.

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